Feel The Fear

fear

(n.) an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm.

People are fearful. Yes, all of us are, even the ones who deny it. You know what I'm afraid of? Spiders. I hate those creepy little creatures. Then, there's snakes (who doesn't fear them?). Can't remember a time when fear didn't hit me when I saw any of them. But that's not the end. There's more to my "List of things I fear".

I'm afraid of oversleeping too. I put 4-5 alarms so that I can be able to wake up on time, or more like, I don't get late. Also afraid of commitment. Total commitment-phobe. If my exes are reading this, I apologize for my commitment-phobic behaviours.

Our fears make way for anxiety to creep into our lives. Anxiety is a big deal in our lives. It's kind of an evil irony. It usually ends up holding us back from the things that we consider the most important to achieve. I've had a variety of anxieties. Still working on the commitment one. But, some anxieties just stay with us to worsen our lives. Like anxiety about not being worthy or good enough to achieve certain things we desire.

We all have been to that place once in our lives where we wanted to do something, to say something, to impress someone and make them think that we're better than the others. But when we open our mouth, it's just awkward, and then silence, followed by awkward silence. Or perhaps worse, we blab, we say too much, we say things, things we are not supposed to, things we thought we would never tell anyone in a normal state of mind, things that we later regret saying, things that come to our mind when we can't sleep at night; thus, beginning the chain of all the embarrassing events happened in our lives. These moments/feelings mess up our psychology and restricts us to perform such ever again in the future, resulting in blocking our already on construction road to success.

Psychology is an intertwined thing. It's all connected. It's more like an onion, we tear up a layer only to find another one. Psychologically, we cannot just defeat anxiety, but we can surely overcome them; where confidence and self belief can be the two very strong weapons we ought to keep in our arsenal. Even when they are not enough to win the mighty battle, the desire to win, desire to be special, desire to achieve it more than the others always does the trick. Because only by pushing our limits, we can know how far we can go. As success is awarded not to the fearless, for he has little to do in the road to glory; but the fearful, who chose to be brave enough to defeat his fear and overcome them.

Dreams That Get Lost

The mind is a wonderful thing. It can be creative and imaginative. It can show you dreams. Dreams that can rise you from the dust and take you to glory. Dreams that can create the very meaning of your existence. But, it can also be cruel sometimes. It can show you dreams of uncertainties and lead you to a dreamland, the thought of  which would always make you happy even at the gloomiest of hours; or it can reverse the gear, and take you back to those lanes that you left far behind in your memories.

Some memories may take you back to places where you dream about what you want from life, where you have always wanted to be, or at least your heart did; while some might just take you back to the narrow lanes that you somehow managed to pass through, or rather survive it. Such memories always leave mark, physically, some might argue; mentally, often to agree. One may seek pleasure revisiting his childhood days, cherishing the times, he spent with his family and friends, the little things that used to matter more then, the worry-less days he used to go through or even the times of future promises that were never true. Those days he thought the world is as simple as it could get. He thought he would win the world someday. He thought he could achieve it all. To be precise, he thought he knew what he wanted and had control over his dreams. Little did he know, that he knew nothing more than Jon Snow.
But destiny, knew it all. It awaited him and used time as it's means. Time is a strange thing. You always think you have it, but often you don't, and of course, you're always too late to understand it. Time flows at a speed greater than the speed of light. They don't tell you this in the books; nor would they teach you this in school, rather they would want you to know what's the expansion of a binomial expression or how much is the marginal rate of substitution of a quantity, irrelevant of your need for it in your life. Only when you're too old, you understand what really matters to you and realise the importance of your dreams and how much it meant to you when you were a child. For some, it might be too late to chase their dreams, while others just give up on them, and would rather prefer visiting his dreamland where he has all that he wants.

But, as they say, it is never too late to start dreaming or even start acting upon them. One should never settle what someone else wants out of his life. Only by being pertinacious about how much he wants it, he can truly achieve it. And achieve he must; as by killing his dream, he kills a part of his soul. The part that is lost forever, without which, his life could never be fulfilled, and without which, his existence wouldn't have a complete meaning.